my life thus far

Hello :)
Haven't posted anything in a long time, sorry, to be honest I totally forgot about the blog lol.
First off, omg Jeanne, I didn't know you had a blog! :) woot

So here I am, 10 pm. I am lazing away at the comp with not too much to do, well, theres never not too much to do but i dont want to do any of it right now. I am angry at a customer at work because I am sick. I wasn't a few days back, but then I played cashier for a day and what do you know... I KNOW WHO ARE MR 4 PSI TIRE GUY!!!! (he's the one who got me sick)

Well, my brother and his girlie has been staying with Jeremy and I for about 3 weeks or more now. Its nice to have him around and hang out. My apartment is lookin worse for the wear though, even though it is 2 bed 2 bath it is still pretty small for 4 people. OH, I got a kitten :) well, kinda. Its a stray little kitty that has come to our building and i feed it and named it, so I view it as mine now. He (I think it is a boy, it is also a calico so thats pretty darn neat) is smart, he runs away from all the various children around but comes to KateLynn and I :) We named him SJ. short for StephenJeremy lol. There is a long and funny story behind it but you woulda hadta been there so I will not go into it. In short, he is adobo and fuzzy and cuddly and mine :)

I am excited because after 13 weeks of split days they finally gave me two in a row off. the 4th and 5th of July no less.

My garden is doing amazing. I have lots of little green tomatos and some zhucinni and peas and strawberries and peppers galore. I am very proud of it. I love to just stand on my balcony and look at it and relax on a nice day. It is very calming.

Work is going fine I suppose. It is getting very hot in the shop and summer is just now getting under way. Not looking forward to the 100+ days that are gonna be here in a few :( I don't take the heat very well, I grew up in Montana. This kills me. And the darkest I can get is offwhite :(

Been thinkin alot lately. About lots of different stuff really. Where I am and where I want to be and the past as well. Don't know why i have been thinking about the past, it has no dwelling right now but i just have. I blame facebook. I see all these people I grew up with that I have not talked to in years and I am torn with emotions. I am happy for the most part because they are doing so well, good jobs or schooling or married and babies etc... But I am also a litlle sad. I really should have kept in better touch before, I feel that I have missed out on a lot of things for my old friends and I am sad that I have drifted so far from where I once was. I love where I am at in life right now and I love my friends to death but I guess I am nostalgic for my childhood. I wonder if this is the everyone feels when they "turn into grownups" or if I am way too sentimental. hmm. either way, thats been a part of my thoughts lately.
I also have been thinking of where I want to be. I don't really want to live in tri-cities anymore, it's okay here but it just doesnt feel like home to me. I don't really know where I want to go though. I want mountains for sure. I have been thinking northern wash. but I don't know. Or Spokane. There are many places that I would like to move to but ultimately I am scared. I am fairly situated here, Jeremy and I both have our jobs and apt. and everything and I am afraid that if we move it will be too hard. Its like taking your first dive into the swimming pool. You want to do it, you know it will be loads of fun and frankly you are tired of cannonballs off the ledge. But you have that little fear built up in your stomach, that fear that whispers in your ear, this is so high up, what if I go in wrong and get hurt, what if I crack under pressure and freeze on the board. Do you make the plunge or do you step down, take the safer route, keep screaming cannonball as you jump off the ledge of the pool and look up with envy when someone else dives magnificently off the highdive? Right now I feel like that kid, the one who is afraid to make the jump but yearns for the feeling of accomplishment of making the perfect dive. I am scared that what if transportation isn't any good wherever I go, I have no car right now and I would need to make it to work. What if I move to a place and don't like it? What if the house isn't what I thought it would be or the neighbors aren't who I would want to live next to? I don't know why I am letting these things hold me back, after all, I live in a fourplex and I can't communicate with my nieghbors, I am borderline ghetto. I think that in the end I am afraid of change. I always have been. I am the hater of the anitclimax. I cry when an era ends. When in movies the end is so far from the start. I don't want my end to be so far from my start. I don't want to see a bunch of changes. I am an in the rut kind of person, vintage to the core. I guess that I am afraid of regrets. And I regret that. I feel that I miss out on many parts of life because of that mindset. The most messed up part of it is this, total addmitance of the problem but yet I do not know how to solve it.
I don't know what I want to be when I grow up either, and I am pretty much there. I don't want to work at Wal*Mart for the rest of my life. I want to go to school but it is so expensive and I don't know what to take because I don't know what will be apllicable to my life in the future. I want to learn another language, more that one. I want to finish my drama degree and I would love to be a teacher for younger grades but that doesn't make much money at all. I would absolutly love to own a little "restaraunt" I guess would be the word. But that does not aptly describe it. A sadwich shop with a bakery. A comfortable little place for people to have lunch and desert and to make cakes for all occasions. That is my dream, with a bookstore beside it. But again the fear, I edge my way to the end of the highdive, quivering.... What if I can't make enough money at it? What if it is not at all how I imagine it?
I also would like to start a charity of some sort or the other or something along those lines. I love helping people and making people smile and feel good about themselves. I want to help people. Maybe socialwork but I think I am to fragile for that. I am not big on anything government anyway, it usually seems to get muddled up somewhere along the line. So back to charity. I am not sure how to start a charity so any info would rock my socks.

Anyways, that was a lot longer than I had anticipated. I will write again soon because getting stuff like this off my chest feels good. :) my own therablog haha. I will try to keep it lighter next time though. Have an amazing night.

Sweet Dreams
Blondie <3

since my last post...

Well, here it is, 8:56pm. I am finally off of work for the day, showered, in my jammies and enjoying a beer :) Smirnoff Ice Pineapple, to be exact. My day was fine, hectic and very busy, but all in all it was OK.

The morning started off nicely with the findings that all but one of my tomato plants are now in bloom :) as are my peppers and strawberries :)
I made it to work with no delays and even paid my bills this morning. The first four and a half hours of work went smoothly and quickly.
Thats when things got hectic.

Just as I was leaving for lunch the phone rang. I answered it and it was my friend from work. bawling. It was raining pretty darn hard out and he has a nice, very fast car so my first thought was OMG you wrecked. Well he didnt, which is a good thing, the only thing I could get out of him is that he was gonna be late to work. Later turns out he couldnt make but I cant blame him, I even told him on the phone that it didnt sound like he should come in.
Then my mom calls.

She tells me that Jeremys friend that was keeping his stuff in MT for him dropped it off at moms house and she wants to know when we can come get it. right. with my imaginary car.
That she knows good and well I dont have.
So we get one of our friends who is heading up this way soon to get most of it. still. kinda stressfull.
Then I call Jeremy.

He gets stressed because of the "stuff" situation and also angry that when paying the bills thismorning I didnt pay all of the power bill. Just most of it. SO I call the power company and payed the rest of the bill. Then I get an apology :)
Then I go back to work.

By this time I am feelin kinda of dizzy and have a headache. I think I am getting sick :(
ANYways, It is only moose and I in the shop for the rest of the day. Well and Jim but he doesnt really count cause he is a greeter and not a tech. Sorry Jim. I guess thursday nights are the new "IT" nights to have your oil changed and get new tires because we got SLAMMED. Even when we gave them ridiculous wait times everyone still wanted us to work on thier cars! Needless to say, it was a VERY busy night. I do not believe morning crew will be very happy with us for the mess we left the shop in. Oh well, it will give them something to do.

The good part of the evening (besides the obvious smirnoff) is that my taxi was not only on time, but actually EARLY to get me tonight :) and I got to go straight home without picking anyone up first. and it was my favorite taxi driver. This guy is really cool and his mom used to be my favorite manager untill she moved to AZ last month.

So here I am, its 9:13 and I am sitting here, "blogging" (which I dont know if I am really any good at this. It seems kinda dry) Finishing off my Smirnoff.

Until another night, Sweet dreams.

-Blondie <3

My first blog :)

Ok, so I am kinda new to this whole bloggin concept but it seems like a fun thing to do so what the hell.
I guess I will start off with a bit about me.
My name is Laurel. I pronounce it like it rhymes with floral. Some, depending on accent pronounce it La Rel or Lowr El. I am cool with however you wanna say it so long as you dont drop the last "L". I am NOT Laura, Laurie, Lauren or any name such as that. Its just one of those things that bug me. Its easiest to call me Blondie :)

I am currently residing in Washington. Not the pretty lets go climb a mountain or fish from the pier Washington either. I live in the Columbia Basin. The desert. There are no mountains here, hardly any hills. It barely rains and the sun must not be more than three miles tops from here, it gets that hot. The only true plus side is that it is a great area for farming and gardening. Now if you really know me you know that I do not take heat very well. At all. I dont even tan. I get red, then back to white (almost albino) then red again then white then red then I graduate to off-white. Must be the Irish in me.

I love to garden. I live in an upstairs apartment but i still manage to have a very nive veggie garden on my balcony. You will see pics sooner or later. I dote on this garden like a mother dotes on a her child. It is doing very nicely. There has been some rain the past week and that has been nice as well. It has already gotten over 80degrees here this year. It usually hit 112 in the hottest part of the summer. yay.

I have two older sisters and an older brother. I am the youngest by quite a bit. As a matter of fact today is My brothers birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHEN!!!

I am a cat person. Well I am an animal person all around but I have always had cats and never had a dog so I guess that makes me a cat person. I think that kittens can cure any mood malfunction.

My bestest friend is Shelly. We have known each other now for five years and have been through a lot together. I know that no matter what I can always count on her and vice versa. She is the coolest chick and will always be my bestie :)

Family is very important to me and I feel that I do not get to see them nearly enough these days. I have a normal disfunctional family and I would not trade them for the world.

I work at Wal*Mart. yay. ha ha

I love cars and to learn about them and work on them. I love muscle cars more than ricers.

I love to hunt and fish and hike around the wilderness. I love camping and just generally having a good time.

Parties are fun.

I bake alot. I find it is just about them most relaxing thing for me. I absolutely love cooking. I cook homemade meals nearly everynight and bake cakes like a pro. I love pastry arts. I am very crafty when it comes to the kitchen.

I am also crafty in the sense of craftiness. I scrapbook. Thank you Jeanne :) It is also very relaxing and super dooper fun. For those of you who think its still just clipping newspapers and such and glueing them into a book, you are so wrong. It is something to do that is very creative and beautiful. I make notebooks and canvases and cards and occasionaly I even scrap a page for my scrapbook.

I love doing things with my hands. I am a fair welder and a pretty good wood worker.

I like all types of music and will listen to just about anything. I draw the line at Miley Cyrus. I wont listen to that. I like heavy metal and "classic" rock the most. I also listen to ska-punk, punk, pop, country and some rap. I also enjoy classical music. Bach is my favorite. Like I said, I listen to everything.

Well, I think this is getting pretty long so I am gonna conclude my very first entry into my blog. I will try to write frequently and dont be suprised if alot of it is me bitching about my job lol. Have an amazing night.

-Blondie <3